1. Im so close to losing it, I've been a heroin addict for 13 yrs the longest I've been is 3 days without relapsing of that's what you wanna call 3 days i have no family and no insurance so a rehab center is not even an option and the methadone clinic, oh hell no NEVER again i want to stop in my heart but i can't do it alone and let me tell you I'm alone as they come i have no one i just want my music career and what little of a so called life there is back in lost I'm in the darkest, deepest hole and can't take much more i thought i was strong but I've found out i am NOTi need guidance, i don't know where to turn in fucking humiliated putting myself out there like this but i don't care no more i just need help if there is anyone in the Fayetteville North Carolina area that you know or any suggestions you may have please E mail me @ >> [email protected]yahoo.com

  2. You're sooo right! Recovery is NOT for pussies! Those of us in recovery, many times, are struggling. And struggling is tough. It's even tougher not to reach for quick fixes! (That always make it worse, in the long run) It's hard. So yes, we gotta be tough to be successful in recovery.

    Remember how loved and supported you are, cuz it's easy to let those negative thoughts creep in. ๐Ÿ™‚ You have my whole-hearted support. ๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’›

  3. You know things make you so much stronger in life . like my family dieing we lost another angel 4 weeks ago melinda 26 year old mother my cousin so with her death i was able to handle her death thanks to being strong and having support from you all

  4. I have been clean for 2 years now and I work a 12 step program. I am feeling pretty low about how self centered I have been and really sad about my codependency. The need to care take and problem solve is corroding my soul. It has put strain on my relationship with my little sister.

  5. I'm having major transformation right now . Something crazy is in the air ! Don't even trip girl refocus regain and forgive yourself LOvE you ! Addiction is a broad broad spectrum. Sometimes we need certain things but we're always in recovery babe you know that ๐Ÿ˜˜I can't even go out in big crowds anymore bc of the same exact thing people don't get what is up with me and it's a change for me and for everyone around me. But the good thing is we close doors to those that don't fit into our new paths and new doors open for the people
    Who do fit:) love you Roberta so. So so much !

  6. Day 27. Great to hear you Rockin Roberta. No judgment here. I've been doing meetings like twice a week at 6am in the morning. The Just For Today group meets 7 days a week, once at 6am, one at 7am, no time off for holidays. Actually this group puts on a great Thanksgiving Breakfast; it is my home group. You are right, recovery is not for slackers. While I was using I lost touch with my entire blood family. The first time I got clean was 1994 and stayed clean for almost 4 years, then made some relationship errors and relapsed for almost two years, then stayed clean for 3 and 1/2 years, became a drug counselor and got a job in a Needle Exchange in Cambridge as an IDU educator for a year, relapsed ON THE Job, so I quit. Working in the barber shop, you know. You're doing great; Recovery is not a straight line. I was on Suboxone for the last 10 years and now I'm free of it. Keep on Keeping on, ODAT!

  7. Recovery has to come First!โค๏ธ I can relate, Iโ€™ve gotten to the point, that if something or someone is not good for my Recovery, I back away. We have to protect our selves. Part of the healing process, is learning to take care of our selves. Take good care of you!๐Ÿ’› I Love Your Videos!!! You are Very Special.๐Ÿ’›

  8. I hope you get everything you desire roberta….you deserve so many good things and more….i send you nothing but love and hope โคโคโค p.s i swear and curse like a trooper too ๐Ÿ˜ฎ๐Ÿ˜ณ xx

  9. I just heard u say u talked to God.. that is so awesome sweety. He is there for u all the way. Not religion. Kind of God. I don't serve a religious god. I serve the living .creator. who also died km

  10. Your. Awesome. Being g veryhonest. I love that. Real . I believe a lot if people see that a love it or hate it. Lol keep the faith in the lord. He is.good. ok love u sister. ks.Thanks. foe all you shared

    .lol. how old are u. Sorry. Not suppose to ask that. But u. 52. I think u. 45 48. Lol pee cheese kick g. Yes it works all the rest of your life.

  11. You are such a strong person. Keep pushing forward. We all make mistakes, what is important is how you react to the mistake. Proud if you for opening up and telling us what you have been going through. Hang in there ๐Ÿ˜€. Sending hugs to you

  12. Hang in there Berta!!!!!!!!!))) What a Gal !!!!!!!!!!!)))๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽˆ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ˜Š๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒผ๐ŸŒธ๐Ÿ˜Š

  13. I just had a family reunion, I made a video about it actually! Thatโ€™s crazy. I had a good experience though… you have to put yourself first. I have a shit ton of resentment towards my sister. She wasnโ€™t there, thankfully….

  14. Yes amen Roberta. I'm going on 6 months clean; over 30 years of addiction. Everything is new and dealing with past hurts, hang-ups and habits is sooo hard. Having support is vital…6 months ago I was ready to kill myself but God had other plans. I cried out to him and he instantly took my addiction away and healed me…I mean NO withdrawals either, my cravings left too. It was a miracle. Love you all. God bless and I pray that Jesus heals everyone who reads this. In Jesus Christ name, amen. The bible says…Jesus is the healer, deliverer, physician and heals the broken hearted.

  15. great stuff, Roberta. "we do not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it… " That's what we were trying to do when we were drinking and using. I know you've heard this, but often the first year of sobriety gets worse before it gets better… I'm not religious either but I definitely ask God for help.โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ

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